The culmination of so many things has me borderline depression, possibily full blown and I find myself just wanting to cry at least once a day. Hell, typing this has tears running down my cheeks.
Between family, work, and random **** I feel so overwhelmed and like a failure at times. I try my best to put on a happy face and get **** done, to find ways to feel productive, to just not be a downer for those around me and lately to not cry while at work.
I don't know what I want from starting this thread, but I just felt I need to "tell" someone.
-- Edited by EmmDee on Tuesday 10th of July 2012 10:12:37 AM
Emm, Sometimes life does get overwhelming and can certainly make anyone feel depressed. I am sending positive thoughts and strength your way.
And just so you know, I do not view you as anything but fantastic. If you need to let it out, you came to the right place. If there is anything I can do to make you feel better let me know and I will. ((((hugs))))
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I wish you were closer. I would invite you over to Mafia House for a drink and a swim. It is so restful and peaceful early in the morning (much busier later in the day) when I have my coffee on the sun porch that I wish I could share that with you!
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I'm sorry to hear that, EmmDee. I don't think you are that old, but could your hormones be out of sync? Along with the other things you have going on that can push you right over the edge.
It might be worth it to speak with your Doctor. Perhaps he or she could direct you to a good councelor or even a low dose med? Sometimes we need a little help when life gets tricky. I had to get a little something during the tribulations with my parents and their guardianship and am not ashamed to admit it. heck, I'd have wore a hairshirt drenched in it if I could have! Whatever gets you through, KWIM?
I would check with a doctor first but Ive had good results with St. John's wort in the past. it helped take the edge off and I did feel better and more motivated. It's over the counter, might run ya 10-15 bucks.
Emm, have you ever checked out Hyperbole and a Half? (Sorry, can't do links)
Imo, the best thing about it is that someone else is able to articulate those feeling. Have you ever felt that if you could just express what's wrong it would make you feel better? If you're not good at self expression it might help to identify with the character.
Another thing I took away from it was that the artist created an outlet for herself. It might help to explore yourself and find a way to express. It does't have to be art. It could be anything that creates an outlet for you like swimming or gardening or anything.
EmmDee, I am sorry that you are feeling down. Get some exercise every day, exercise can build endorphins. A good workout can make you feel relaxed and probably can alleviate the depressing feelings. Perhaps you can write it out on a notebook, this allow you to keep your mind active and to just expend some energies. Also, try meditation, it allows one's mind to be calm and relaxed. We're here for you, talking it out can be therapeutic. ***HUGS***
I would check with a doctor first but Ive had good results with St. John's wort in the past. it helped take the edge off and I did feel better and more motivated. It's over the counter, might run ya 10-15 bucks.
hang in there!
St John's Wort makes birth control pills less effective so please do not take this if you are on the pill. If you aren't though, it is worth a try.
Otherwise I second Cinthy's advice. And maybe do a mini-makeover of something like yourself or your living area. cut or dye your hair - you can do it yourself or maybe have a roommate help you:), rearrange your closet and try pairing up different clothes, etc, rearrange your furniture, basically something new to give you a different focus.
I have been feeling pretty down lately and also have finance issues. In the last week I have totally rearranged our entire house. I now have an awesome craft/office room. I catch myself smiling because I like it so much.
Good to know about the St John's Wort and BC. Any clue on if it has the same effect on Mirena IUD?
I am working very hard to not let it get too bad for me. I am embracing creating my own designs for my stones so this means I am sketching out ideas and then recreating them on my computer. It has been nice.
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have you talked to froot about it.. I know you guys are good friends and bonus roomies... maybe just venting to her will help?
Not really, I have a hard time being vulnerable with people in person. I'm sure she has an idea as tidbits come out. I am more likely to let it out with someone who I don't see daily because it makes me feel weak even if that is irrational.
Emm, I was thinking of you this morning and hoping you were feeling a little better. If and when you're ready to run away, let me know and I'll get your room ready!
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Thanks my dear. I went to see my FWB last night, being at his house is always like going to a haven and I almost instantly relax when I walk through his door. It was a good evening, he played his guitar, gave me a massage, we watched the first three episodes of Newsroom, he cooked dinner, it was just a nice night.
Me too, his house is like an escape from reality. He is not part of my daily life because he is about an hour away so it is like a mini getaway. Who wouldn't like someone who plays guitar and sings to you, especially if he is good at it.
I have been on this thread a few times but haven't posted because I don't know what to say. I am sorry you are having such a rough time. I wish there was something I could say to make it easier for you. It is times like this that the peep estate seems like such a good idea lol. We would all be close by to help each other out. I know you say talking to people in real life makes you feel weak, and I understand that, but I can assure you that the people you are talking to don't see it that way. I know it is easier said then done, I am the same way, I don't like people to know when I am having difficulties of any kind. Maybe talking to your doctor or a therapist could help. I will be praying for you if that's ok and be sure to let us know if there is anything we can do to help.
momofhalfdozen, thank you for your words. I am feeling a bit better today than I was earlier in the week. The stress is still there but I am finding some things to take my mind off of it. And of course, prayers are always welcomed and appreciated.
Emmdee i am so sorry that things are getting too hard. The thing to remember is that you are a wonderful caring person. Give yourself the right to set smaller goals and do less. On hard days set your goal to get out of bed and get dressed. Concentrate on the things you have and can do and do not beat yourself up over the other things that are too hard.
Yes smiling when do not feel like it can sometimes help. Other times give your self permission not to have to smile and look happy. Treat yourself gently and with respect because you are worth while. Treat yourself as you would your best friend if they were depressed. Hugs
I know it soundsa little hoakey but aroma therapy often helps me as well. Listening to some new age music (Hans Zimmer "millenium " is awesome) and burning lavender or pear nectar insense/candle tarts really heps he relax and feel better. Those two scents seem especially comforting to me for some reason. My mini escape. and I always feel better afterwards.
2S, I am still managing to get myself out of bed, caring less about my appearance definitely. I have a business to run so I have to come in, no choice. I am truly thankful that despite my brother being 1.5 hours away, he is very involved in my business and won't let me just let it go. On the flip side he doesn't completely understand the idea of depression and some days I just can't tackle the problems in front of me and they have to be set aside till tomorrow. I am working on that. Thank you for your kind words and advice.
Mary, that is really good advice. I have one of those wax warmers and a few different scents that make me happy. It is all in a box from moving so I will seek it out to see if scent therapy will help me relax too.
Thanks my dear. I went to see my FWB last night, being at his house is always like going to a haven and I almost instantly relax when I walk through his door. It was a good evening, he played his guitar, gave me a massage, we watched the first three episodes of Newsroom, he cooked dinner, it was just a nice night.
