People IRL think I'm a bad ass. I know, funny right? I have a bad temper and it came out a lot when I was younger. I was fearless (or pretended to be) as well. I would do/try any stunt. Those who know me from way back when wouldn't think I was scared of anything. Truth is I am secretly a wuss lol. I don't watch horror movies, they scare the crap out of me. I'm a grown woman and scared something is going to jump out of the dark and get me. My DH is one of the few people who know. Well, until now that is.
So, what scares you? Do people know, or is it a secret? If it's a secret do you plan to keep it that way?
I'm not afraid of dying but I'm afraid of being trapped inside my body/mind with no way to communicate.
It terrifies me to even think about it. Great. My hands are shaking now.
I'd also be really afraid to die but still have some sort of consciousness hanging around earth like a ghost or something but not be able to talk to or interact with people.
I'm scare of all kinds of things, at different levels-death, the dark, pain, dentists, doctors, public speaking, heights, disease, driving, fire, guns, power tools...
I am afraid of public speaking yet I do it all of the time for my job; once I get on stage I can work a crowd but before hand I think I am going to throw up.
42, you reminded me of another significant phobia.
I am deathly afraid of the Appellate Court.
I see that on law shows, is that because you are afraid that a case you won will be overturned?
BTW do you get charged up presenting in front of a jury?
Yes, I am afraid that the appellate court will overturn a case that I have won. It hasn't happened but it is in the background leering at me all the time if you see what I mean.
I am also terrified of arguing in front of the appellate court, which I have done and will do again. I would rather try ten cases before a jury than do one appellate argument.
I like jury trials and get very charged up about not only arguing my case to a jury, but presenting the evidence to them so they will understand my client's position and be persuaded. It is great fun and very exciting, though anxiety-producing also.
The only thing that scares me is loss of freedom... but that can come in many forms: Incarceration (I don't break the law... but innocent people do sometimes get convicted anyway), Governmental removal of Rights by legal means, et cetera...
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1. Bees, especially wasps. When I was a kid I accidentally stuck my hand in a wasp nest playing hide and seek in a huge cemetery. Good thing I wasn't allergic, as I got stung a LOT, but still had to go to the ER. Years ago a pest control person talked me out of being afraid of carpenter bees - those huge things that dive bombed me when I went out on my back porch, so I stayed away - by saying that they were just checking me out and if I stood still they'd go away and about their own business. And that's exactly what happens, so they're not on my list. ;)
2. And spiders, if they sneak up and surprise me! LOL! IF I see them first and they're in the house, I rehome them outside, still scared but being a good humanitarian as per whatsthatbug.com. For some reason I'm not scared of them outside, though we're not buddies, either!
3. My one sister, the youngest one, who has anger management issues. Several years ago we were estranged for 18+ months due to my plain speaking after a unwarranted rage on her part over soda. We were driving together up to the mountains to visit family (she lives 10m away from me) and it's a 2 1/2 hour drive. She SEETHED the whole way there, then stalked into our other sister's home w/o saying a word, to anybody. And was like that for hours before calming down enough to be pleasant and sociable. I didn't even say anything right then, waited a couple of weeks then told her how I felt.
BOTH of us grew up in the same violent household with a mother who was barely there due to MI issues. I, however, am rage-adverse. I've been told by people, including past boyfriends, that I'm "too gentle." Well, I'd rather be too gentle - whatever the hell that means! - then someone people learn to avoid!
We are talking and emailing now for a couple of years, but it is not the same. I understand through my niece that DSis made some changes and is on better meds., but I will continue to walk on eggshells, limit my exposure, and continue loving my sister as before, but more from a distance.
4. The process of dying scares me, but not death itself.
I fear for my girls. For some reason not my son but my girls. And some of my fears are irrational. One of my kids is a B student, can you get into college with Bs? Not getting into college is not the worse thing in the world but it is my fear for her. My other daughter I fear about sex and when she will start having it. She has a great foundation and would certainly use precaution but I just don't want her to become "one of those girls". Every time she goes to a party or even if we have one here I just want to cringe.
A friend recently told me about a 14 year old girl having sex with her 18 year old boyfriend. I wanted to die-after I wanted to throw up. I would have had his ass sent to jail and I am still trying to imagine what I would have done to my kid. I personally would have felt like I had failed big-time as a mother. I stress about these things...which is why I need to color my hair.
-- Edited by Forty-two on Monday 12th of November 2012 08:24:38 AM
Ow, ow, OW, Richard! For me it was that hand and arm that got most of the stings. The thing that worried me at the time, cartoon-lovin' kid that I was, was that a long LONG string of vengeful wasps would follow me home!!